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Hey Tumblr People!

Im Caitlyn. Im 24, and Im a food addict.

HI CAITLYN!

This is going to be my blog on my weight loss journey. Here goes nothing.

Sooooo…. did you ever wake up one day and say “hey! I think I’m going to change my life today!” Yeah… me either… I have always been what people call a “big girl” I HATE that term too. It drives me nuts. I grew up with people telling me I “have such a beautiful face.” Why? Why can’t I just be beautiful? Why is only my face beautiful? Or “You have such a great personality.” Really? Seriously? Why don’t you just plaster “FAT KID” across my forehead and call it good? Doesnt EVERY “heavy” person get told that at least once in their life? Isnt that what we do? We HAVE to work on our personalities to compensate for what we are lacking.

 I was never a person to dwell on the fact that I was bigger. In fact, those that know me the best may even have called me vain. I took the assets that I had and considered good, and accentuated them even more. I thought that if I put on make up and acted like my pooh didnt stink that others would picture me the same way, and it work for awhile… but I wasnt fufilled… I was sad and started downing my sorrows in booze and dudes. I thought that any guy that gave me attention must have seen how amazing I was and how great I looked. WRONG!! CUE THE BUZZER!!! I think we all know what people think of girls that act like that. I dont need to say it out loud.

But, then long story short, I met the man of my dreams that really did see me like that, pitched the booze, got married, had an AMAZING DAUGHTER, and then got even fatter. LOL I have been going through life wondering WILL IT EVER END??? WONT THIS WEIGHT JUST FALL OFF OF ME??? (cue buzzer again) and slowly but surely I decided that I wanted to change. I want the outside of me to match how I feel on the inside. 

So.This blog is going to be the journey of me the “Fat Kid,”

PS.

my EXTREMELY embarrassing first starting weight journey Picture will be coming as soon as i can get the nerve to put it on the internet for everyone to see. Wish me luck.

S.W. 246

G.W. 165